EXC Jesy Nelson was 'drained with being compared' to bandmates
EXCLUSIVE ‘I was thinking “Am I as skinny as Leigh, Perrie and Jade?”‘: Jesy Nelson was ‘drained from being compared’ to her Little Mix bandmates while they were ‘living their dream’
Jesy Nelson has detailed her heartache over comparing herself to her Little Mix bandmates and has admitted she is ‘so happy’ to have gone solo.
The songstress, 30, spoke on Fearne Cotton’s podcast Happy Place podcast, which is now part of Acast’s Creator Network, about the lead-up to her departure, which saw her leave the group in December after she became ‘trapped and miserable’.
She commanded the music charts with bandmates Leigh-Anne Pinnock, Jade Thirlwall and Perrie Edwards for nine years after finding fame on X Factor – however she admitted in her chat with Fearne that she would compare herself to the trio.
Relieved: Jesy Nelson has detailed her heartache over comparing herself to her Little Mix bandmates and has admitted she is ‘so happy’ to have gone solo
In December, Jesy confirmed her permanent departure, just weeks after revealing she was taking a temporary hiatus from all work commitments and later revealed her mental health was the reason behind her leaving the group.
After much speculation she then teased her first solo single earlier this year and is set to unveil BOYZ at 6pm on Friday.
Speaking about her insecurities before the launch, she said: ‘I would say, 60% of me has I’ll never sit and lie and be like, oh, I’m so happy now, I don’t have any insecurities as that’s an absolute lie, I still have my insecurities, I still have my struggles…
‘I guess the thing that I’m better with now, is that I see little things now when I do a music video, I’m not looking on the camera and thinking, oh my God, I don’t look as skinny as Jade, Anne and Perrie…
Pained: She commanded the music charts with bandmates Leigh-Anne Pinnock, Jade Thirlwall and Perrie Edwards for nine years after finding fame on X Factor – however she admitted in her chat with Fearne that she would compare herself to the trio
‘And that’s what I did every single day, and for the first time ever, I did my music video and I enjoyed it. I absolutely loved it and I was like, this is the feeling I should have had the whole time.’
‘And some people were not supportive of that, and some people are and I’m okay with that. Also, it wasn’t nice for Jade, Anne and Perrie to be around when I was so down, they we’re living their dream and I wasn’t…
‘I felt very miserable and trapped and I knew that, that wasn’t right.’
Elaborating further on going single, she said: ‘To be compared every single day to three other girls was draining, and I couldn’t deal with that anymore…
Back! After much speculation she then teased her first solo single earlier this year and is set to unveil BOYZ at 6pm on Friday
Countdown: Jesy shared some BTS video snaps from her debut single ahead of its release
The girls: Little Mix are continuing as a trio in the wake of Jesy’s departure
‘And I think a lot of people have misconstrued what I meant in my statement, they’re like oh, so now she’s going solo. I never said in my statement, I’m coming out of the music industry, I’m not going to do music anymore…
‘I said, I’m just going to start a new chapter of my life, I just want to make myself happy. I don’t know what that’s going to be, but I need to look after myself now, make myself feel better again.’
Jesy pointed to the fact that lockdown helped her reach her decision.
She said: ‘We never had time to just be by ourselves and the only time I had that was lockdown, and for me, that was when I realized: Okay, this isn’t for me anymore…
Emotional: Her emotional statement read: ‘To all my Mixers, the past nine years in Little Mix has been the most incredible time of my life’
‘And it sounds crazy, because obviously we were in a pandemic and there was awful things going on, but it was the first time I’d felt true peace and happiness, that I hadn’t felt in such a long time.’
Talking about her solo work she said: ‘It was just really nice, writing songs about experiences that I’ve been through….
‘So it is like therapy and you get the best songs out of whatever you’re feeling. If I’m feeling something that damn, I need to get in the studio and write a song about this.’
The girls: Little Mix are pictured in June 2019, prior to Jesy’s departure
‘And I was going through a breakup at the time as well so when I was in the shoot, I’ve honestly wrote some really bloody good songs because of it. So yeah. But it really is like therapy and I love it so much.’
On her new team, she said: ‘Now, obviously I’ve got a new team and I’m around people that genuinely love and care about me and it makes such a difference…
‘So I think when you are struggling, when you feel that way, it’s so important to be around people that genuinely love you and care about you and just want the best for you.’
Heartbreaking: Jesy won praise for her groundbreaking TV documentary Odd One Out, which addressed her struggles with online bullying and body image
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