‘I worry I’ll regret my birthing plan – I’m questioning every decision,’ says Shaugna Phillips

Pregnant Love Island star Shaughna Phillips is eagerly anticipating the birth of her first child, after announcing she was expecting a baby in October 2022.

The 28 year old fell pregnant just two months after coming off the pill last summer, and described the moment she saw the positive test as an "out-of-body experience".

Shaughna, who is just weeks away from her due date, hasn't held back when it comes to detailing her experience of pregnancy, as she prepares to become a mum for the very first time, as she's opened up on struggling with her changing body and regretting not finding out her baby's gender.

This week, Shaughna dishes on everything from her birthing plan, including pain relief, to her swanky birthing suite and her fears about becoming a mum.

In her exclusive OK! column , Shaughna gives fans and mothers-to-be her first hand, unfiltered experience…

Questioning all of my life decisions

I officially turned 36 weeks pregnant last Saturday and so met with my midwife to discuss my birthing plan and which type of painkillers I want to go for when I give birth to my baby

The midwife recommended that after the baby is born, he or she gets a Vitamin K dose. They can have it either by injection, six hours after birth, or orally, but it involves getting a prescription from my GP. It's a lot to take in.

I was then asked if I had any questions, and I said: "Yes. I'm questioning all of my life decisions up until this point."

S**t has got very real now. The midwife told me that if I haven't had the baby by the April 1, I will be induced.

So, to think that next month I'll actually be someone's mum and that there is going to be a little human in the world that depends on me for everything is quite scary. I still feel like I'm doing my GCSE's in school!

I know I'm an adult and nearly 30, but I can't quite believe I'm going to be given this responsibility of looking after a baby. It's terrifying.

I've told the midwife I only want gas and air… but I'm already scared I'll regret it!

I was sat with the midwife and she was asking me what sort of pain relief I wanted to go for, and it was like a total out of body experience.

I have no idea what I need, but I definitely want gas and air. I'm not saying I want to do it all naturally but I'd like to try to do as much as I can on my own without having too many painkillers.

I don't really want an epidural if I can help it, although everyone says I'm out of my mind for not wanting one. But I just don't want that needle going in my back, so if I can avoid it, I will.

The midwife wrote down 'gas and air', but then I suddenly had some sort of premonition like 'I'm really going to regret that'.

I feel like I have a good pain threshold but people say this is as close to death as you can be, so I don't really know what I want in terms of painkillers yet.

There's a hot tub in my birthing suite

I told the midwife that I wanted to be on the labour ward, but my mum told me that on the birthing wing, you get a hot tub in the suite, so I think I'm going to go for that.

My mum wants me to go for the suite as it's got a settee in it, so I joked with her that as long as she's comfortable, that's all that matters.

She told me she was thinking of me but she's absolutely not!

I couldn't think of anyone better than my mum to be there with me when I'm having the baby though. I feel like she will keep me calm.

I'm panicking about becoming a mum

The actual mum part is making me panic a bit. I have lots of experience with babies, as most of my friends have them but when it's your own, it's a whole different ball game.

Everyone talks about their own experiences and tells me that you get this rush of love as soon as your baby is here, but I'm starting to panic in case I think 'what if this doesn't feel right' or, what if I'm not a natural mother and things don't just come to me easily.

I'm worrying about it a bit, but I have so much support from friends and family, so hopefully everything will be ok.

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